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Monday, February 07, 2005

Dreams, thoughts and SLEEPLESS NITEZ!!! ARGH!!!

Today is the 5th day that I can't sleep well (or should I say that I've only slept for 4 hrs for the past 5 days???). The toll is taking on me both physically and mentally... I first noticed it when I was at Brewerks with my friends, that was the 3nd day of my insomnia. I was helping David to pour a glass of wine and my hands were trembling, I knew that I was gone then... Managed to get some sleep at 7 but woke up at 10. But it's better than nothing...

My mind is also losing its focus. Concentration is at its lowest. If this goes on, I know that I'm a goner, really gone for my studies and health. How? I'm very tempted to go to the doctor for sleeping pills, at least just to tide me off for the next few days during CNY. Should I or should I not? I'm in a dilemma....

I know that I dreamt and thought about Weide, but they are no longer as intense as before.. I also acknowledge that such feelings are inevitable during the process of healing my heart. I am facing it and dealing with it.

But why is it that I still can't sleep???...